Cats as Cats Can

Timmy, our fluffy orange Maine Coon mix, is an extortionist. When I sit down to have lunch, he’ll jump up on the table, saunter over to my plate, and say, “Nice sandwich you’ve got there. It would be a shame if anything happened to it.” Then, to show that he means business, he’ll poke it with his nose. I have to pay him off with a bowl of kibble if I want to have any peace.

Mary Beth, our gray-brown tabby, is a discriminating shopper. She’ll jump onto my crowded desk, stroll around examining the merchandise, find the object she wants to claim — perhaps a scrap of paper or a thumb drive — and then carry it off with the satisfaction of someone who has found a valuable antique in a flea market.

If you find these cameos charming, then you’re clearly an ardent cat person. If you don’t, I can’t blame you. I’m a cat person, but the only cats I’m really interested in are my own. Other people’s cats are just cats. Sure, they may do something adorable in a Facebook photo, like snuggling up in a blanket or chasing a toy, but that’s just generic cuteness, a defining aspect of felinity. My cats have multilayered personalities and complex psychological profiles. They’re also prettier than anyone else’s cats.

Jon Carroll used to write a daily column for the San Francisco Chronicle in which he’d interweave stories of his daily life with unique insights into politics and culture. He had a devoted following, myself among them. (I’ve recently come to realize that I’ve unconsciously been emulating Carroll in my approach to writing this blog.) Occasionally, he’d choose to write about the latest doings of his cats, Archie and Bucket (and later, Pancho). He didn’t necessarily have anything profound to say about them; he just thought that the activities of his cats were fascinating and assumed that other people would, too. It turned out that they didn’t, or at least a vocal minority of his readership didn’t. He got so many complaints about his Archie and Bucket stories that he ended up having to preface each such column with a disclaimer like “This is a cat column. If you have an objection to reading about cats, stop here.”

Several of my earlier blog posts have begun with stories about my cats, but the cats later turned out to be metaphors for something else. Taking a page from Jon Carroll, I should warn you that there are no metaphors coming up; I’m really just writing about cats this time.

I wasn’t always a cat person. I grew up without pets, because my mother considered animals — particularly cats — to be nasty and filthy. (When my parents came to visit Debra and me after we’d adopted Brook, our first cat, my mother said, “I can’t understand why you’d allow wildlife in your house.”) The first extended exposure I had to a domestic animal was the summer after I graduated from college, when some friends and I sublet a small house that came with a cat named Motley. Motley was a mostly-outdoor cat who would drop by only now and then to pick up his mail, but when he was around, he tended to act as if he owned the place (which, in a sense, he did). I would sometimes wake up in the morning to find him standing on me, and I was surprised to find out that I liked the pressure of his little padded feet on my belly.

Like most other recent graduates, I moved around for a few years from house to house and apartment to apartment, and I gradually got to know other cats along the way. Although I was never one to set long-term goals, I did develop a fantasy of the ideal domestic life: feeling securely settled enough in a place to get a piano and a cat.

That time came years later, shortly after Debra and I moved from New Jersey to California and rented a house in a friendly Oakland neighborhood. Debra, who had even less experience with animals than I had, was hesitant, but we decided to adopt Brook, a month-old kitten — because who doesn’t love kittens? — and assume that Debra would grow attached to her by the time she became a cat. The plan worked, and now Debra is a cat maven who volunteers at three animal shelters. (We eventually got a piano as well.)

As for me, slightly more than twenty years ago, I started studying a form of therapeutic bodywork called Breema. One of Breema’s fundamental principles is that the recipient’s body will be relaxed and comfortable only if the practitioner’s body is relaxed and comfortable. If I’m touching someone’s body with the intention of making them feel better, simply having that intention works against my aim of being comfortable. As a Breema practitioner, the only way I can help someone is by not trying to help them. That was a difficult lesson to learn.

The breakthrough came when I realized how much I could learn from Brook, our cat. Brookie not only slept with me, but was in physical contact with me most of the time — draped over my shoulders when I was sitting at my desk, curled on my lap when I was watching TV, kneading my belly when I was lying down. I came to realize that she was always doing Breema. She was never trying to relax me; she was making herself comfortable, letting her body adapt to mine, and the result was naturally soothing to me. Now, whenever I do Breema, I try to remember how a cat would do it.

Timmy, the cat for whom I currently serve as a bed, likes to drape himself over my left leg with his head resting on my thigh. Each of us sleeps better when the other is there. Nearly every afternoon while I’m working at my desk, Timmy comes over, bumps his head against my shin, and trots toward the bedroom. That’s his sign that it’s time for us to take a nap together. If I ignore him and keep working, he’ll come back and bump me with his head again. Eventually, I’ll give in and follow him to the bedroom. It’s hard to say no to taking a nap, especially with a warm cat draped snugly over your leg.

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Niceties

I have been known to have cause to say to my wife Debra, “The cat is not a toy.” And she has been known to respond, “Yes it is!” while continuing to swing the cat’s forelegs as if they were the arms of a dancing puppet.

The point is, Debra and I have different ways of relating to cats. For me, it’s all about respecting the cat’s innate dignity. When Mary Beth, a gray-brown tabby with a long and elegant tail, comes to me for affection, I’ll generally stroke her head and back, scratch under her chin, and rub her belly if she asks me to. When she’s in Debra’s hands, I’m as likely as not to see Mary Beth’s ears being held back to make her look like a rodent, as she protests (in Debra’s imitation cat voice), “Dat’s not diggified!”

I must quickly say that none of this hurts Mary Beth, who is a very patient cat. Debra loves animals and would do nothing to cause them pain. She just feels that there’s no point in having cats in the house if you can’t have fun with them. I, on the other hand, am the sort of person who says “Excuse me” if I have to maneuver around a cat who’s in my way.

As you might expect, our contrasting ways of dealing with cats reflect our ways of interacting with the world. If a house is for sale in our neighborhood, Debra has no problem with touring the house even though she has no intention of buying it; I worry that I’d be wasting the real estate agent’s time under false pretenses. If we’re walking through a narrow residential alley in China, I’ll be careful to keep my eyes forward so as not to accidentally see into anyone’s window. Debra, while not actively peering through the glass, believes that whatever she happens to catch a glimpse of as we walk by is fair game.

For the most part, we’re tolerant of and accustomed to each other’s styles. I will cringe at some of Debra’s behavior, and she will roll her eyes at some of mine, but neither of us will start an argument about it. The only time I can remember Debra seriously objecting to my conduct was when we were racing through an airport to catch a soon-to-depart connecting flight, and I was repeatedly stopping to let people go by. Debra told me, in an unmistakable tone of anger and frustration, to stop doing that.

The surprising thing — and one of the reasons why our marriage has lasted as long as it has — is that our styles of behavior complement each other. Neither one is clearly superior; sometimes Debra’s way is effective, and sometimes mine is.

The first place we lived in together was the ground floor of a house whose upper story had been converted into an apartment. Our upstairs neighbors were a pair of young women whose favorite activity, at the end of a long work week, was to invite a pile of friends over, play loud music, and drink and dance. The thunder of footsteps above us was deafening, and I often found myself having to climb the stairs late at night to ask them to tone it down. As you might expect, that didn’t sit well with them, and our relationship deteriorated into simmering antagonism.

Finally, I had an inspiration. Debra and I had made plans to go away for a weekend, and so I told our neighbors, “We’re going out of town, so this would be a really great time to have a party.” They were pleasantly surprised to be told this, and sure enough, they had a no-holds-barred party while were away. This happened a few more times, and we were pleased to see that they gradually made more of an effort to be quieter on the nights when we were home.

One day, one of the women came to tell me that her roommate’s birthday was coming up, and that they really wanted to celebrate with a big blowout. Would we be willing to go away that weekend? That was a major thing to ask, and she knew it, but we so appreciated her sincerity that we said, “Yes, we’ll find someplace to go.” We went away, they had their party, and from that time on we became friends. This is my favorite example of how instead of meeting resistance with anger, it’s often more effective to meet resistance with niceness.

On the other hand, sometimes it isn’t. When I was having a wisdom tooth removed under sedation in an oral surgeon’s office, my blood pressure suddenly dropped to a life-threateningly low level. The surgeon had to abort the operation, and I was rushed by ambulance to the emergency room. Because it wasn’t clear why this had happened (and because having a wisdom tooth removed when you’re in your 60s is a much bigger deal than when you’re in your 20s), the surgeon was reluctant to attempt the procedure again. He suggested instead that I have it done under general anesthesia in a hospital setting, where they’d be prepared for anything that might go wrong.

We found an oral surgeon who had admitting privileges at a Kaiser hospital (Kaiser Permanente being our healthcare provider), and he tried to set a date for the operation. But to the surprise of all of us, Kaiser turned him down, saying that there was no medical reason to use an operating room for a wisdom tooth extraction. Debra (who, incidentally, was once a lawyer) appealed the decision, submitting affidavits from a variety of medical professionals saying that there was indeed a medical reason — namely, that I had almost died the first time. Still, Kaiser denied the appeal.

At this point, I was ready to back down. Maybe it really wasn’t medically necessary; maybe the blood-pressure drop was just a fluke and I should try again to have the procedure done in the oral surgeon’s office. Maybe I just shouldn’t have the wisdom tooth removed at all. But Debra would have none of it. She pursued this case with various Kaiser representatives, making herself into the world’s worst pain in the ass and refusing to leave them alone until they reversed their decision. They finally did, a full year later — and even then, they refused to concede that use of the operating room was medically necessary. They said that they were permitting it “as a courtesy,” meaning that they were doing it just so they no longer had to put up with Debra. So sometimes it doesn’t pay to be nice, and I’m happy to still be alive to admit it. After that, I can’t really complain when she does funny things to the cat.

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Getting to No

I’m not very good at negotiating with cats. When our big, gentle, orange cat Timmy spreads out on my desk and makes it impossible to reach my computer keyboard, asking him to scootch over to the right is useless. At the same time, I can’t chase him away, because I don’t want him to feel unloved. (Timmy is deep-rootedly insecure.) So what I end up doing is launching a virtual keyboard onscreen and typing one letter at a time with my mouse.

When our perpetually inquisitive tabby Mary Beth jumps up on the kitchen table in the hope that I’ll share my lunch with her, my telling her that “there’s nothing here that cats eat!” doesn’t help. I can’t very well push her off the table — using my greater size and strength against her feels unfair — so I usually just take my lunch elsewhere. My wife Debra will often walk into the kitchen, see me standing at the counter next to the sink eating my sandwich, and shake her head sadly.

The bigger problem is that I’m not much better at negotiating with people than I am with cats. Debra and I used to run a business together, writing and producing educational and training materials. Whenever a potential client asked us for a bid on a project, I would try to figure out ways to cut costs in order to ask for as little money as possible. This wasn’t because I was trying to undercut the competition — in many cases, there was no competition —  but because I knew that education and training are chronically underfunded, and I didn’t want the client to have to spend more money than necessary. This approach to the bidding process occasionally led to awkwardness when the client — not understanding that I had already cut the budget to the bone — tried to bargain me down.

People have tried to explain to me that that’s not how the negotiation process is supposed to work. I’m supposed to start with a bid that’s unreasonably high; the client is supposed to start with an offer that’s unreasonably low; and then we’re supposed to meet in the middle. But I could never bring myself to do it that way. It would be disingenuous to pretend that I was offering a fair price when I knew that I wasn’t.

I don’t do much better when I’m on the other side of the negotiation. If I’m at a market in another country where bargaining over price is the norm, I can’t bring myself to start with an unrealistically low bid. It feels disrespectful, as if I’m dismissing the time and care that the artisan put into making the product. (And yes, I understand that in those cultures, failure to bargain aggressively is what’s considered disrespectful. But even though I understand that intellectually, I still have trouble doing something that doesn’t feel right emotionally.)

I have to confess that this attitude doesn’t run in my family. When my father was in the army and was stationed at a base in San Antonio, my mother would often cross the border into Mexico. Although she had grown up in the Bronx and had never been to a Spanish-speaking country, she had learned to speak fluent Spanish. Speaking in English, and convincingly playing the role of the young white woman that she was, she would make a ridiculously low offer on a product in a market. The merchants would confer — in Spanish, right in front of her — on how low they were willing to go, and she would respond by offering that price in perfect Spanish. (Or so the story goes. Not yet having been born at that time, I can’t confirm that these too-good-to-believe transactions actually happened.)

My difficulty with negotiation is not only a problem in business settings. Whenever Debra and I have a disagreement, we tend to be more protective of each other than of ourselves. “I’ll go along with whatever you want,” I’ll say, and she’ll respond with “But what about what you want?” Years ago, when we were seeing a counselor during a difficult point in our marriage, he couldn’t believe that we engaged in that dynamic. “That’s not how it’s supposed to work,” he said, with some exasperation. “You tell Debra what you want,” he said to me, “and then you tell Mark what you want,” he said to Debra, “and then you work out a compromise!”

That idea came as a complete revelation to me. I’m not sure we ever managed to fully adopt that model, but fortunately, after 33 years of marriage, we no longer find much to disagree about. In any case, I still manage better with Debra than with the cats.

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